Leanne Nalani

Classroom Photos

Office Space is one of my favorite movies in existence. The problem is that I’m having a Milton moment.

Milton Stapler


See, last Thursday I popped into my new classroom to do some work and, of all the cool stuff I’ve bought, my favorite metal Swingline stapler went missing!

Swingline 747 Stapler

Have you seen me?

If you haven’t figured out that I’m a little quirky at this point, you don’t read my blog you do now! Being a strong Taurus, I’m very particular about stuff that belongs to me, especially quality stuff that I shelled out $20 for. I went back to my room today to decorate and it’s still nowhere to be found. Sad face. So what if there are 3 other standard ones in the room…

Aside from that, I started putting things on the walls.

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Chalkboard stickers


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Pencil dispenser!


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Birthday board


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Calendar and a behavior expectations poster in the works


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I got one of those fun colorful lamps. Mood lighting. Why not?


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View from the teachers’ stations


There’s definitely not enough stuff on the walls. After looking at those last two photos, it came to me. The real thing that’s missing are those big banners like the ABC’s and number lines for the tops of the walls. Agree? Disagree? What else is missing?


The Book of Mormon

The anticipation all weekend was killing me! There’s nothing like experiencing a big musical for the first time. Before the show we went to a modern-style restaurant called Urbane.


I drank 3 specialty cocktails before the show. At least we walked from the restaurant to the venue.


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We shared poutine. I’m starting to wonder if I’ll ever get sick of this stuff. I get it at any restaurant that offers it!


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Before the show. We’re not allowed to take pictures during.

For those who may not know, The Book of Mormon is a musical that was created by the makers of South Park. It has won 9 Tony awards including best Musical.

Long story short, the show was hilarious and well worth seeing. This was its last night in Seattle.

Book of Mormon


Hot Zumba?

Today was another 90 degree day. After getting home from school we had reservations for racquetball but the AC is questionable so we cancelled. My dilemma was that I needed to do some kind of exercise and we had an 84 degree room. Mike suggested taking Loki for a walk but outside it’s 90 degrees. I chose 84 degrees for 20 minutes of Zumba. It’s tough to exercise in that kind of heat! Does that count as “hot Zumba”?


*What is my classroom missing? Help me out, I’m new in the elementary scene!

*Are you as in love with poutine as I am?


{August 8, 2014}   Relaxing It Up

This Sunday!

How is your week going? It’s Friday! I’m anticipating Sunday as we’re going to dinner and a show.


Dinner at Urbane in Seattle


Sunday can’t get here soon enough

Weekly Happenings

Here’s something random – My husband found out that The Sims 2 and all 18 expansion packs were free with a special code last week so I got it and started creating houses instead of actually playing the game. Anyone else enjoy The Sims? I have The Sims 3 but no expansions so this was a fun way to binge-watch Being Human (U.K. version) on Netflix and build stuff. So far I’ve created a neighborhood for me and my loved ones. I’ve created my house, my parents’ house, and my sister’s house. Next will be my sister and brother-in-laws’ houses. Then maybe my best friend’s house. :p

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My house, downstairs.

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My house, upstairs. We spend a lot of our time in the media room in the upper right-hand corner.

While I wait I’ve been busy with school as usual. So many things to look into and think about before the school year starts. On Monday my mom went out with me to lunch to talk about school since she used to be a resource room teacher, too. We had a valuable conversation about how to start off the year and collaborating with other teachers, etc. I love being able to talk to my family about the profession we share in common. I also met the superintendent this week and even my dad knows him. This new school district is so personal and everyone seems to know everyone else, which I LOVE. It wasn’t like that in my former school district so I’m hoping to make some great personal connections. I already met one of the new 5th grade teachers at my school and we talked for a couple hours yesterday which was really cool. I’ve met a lot of people so far and every single one has been very friendly.

Oh yeah, so back to Monday. After chatting with my mom at Red Robin and intuitively eating Buffalo Clucks & Fries (yes, it’s sort of possible), I checked out the recently remodeled outlet shopping mall next door. The moment I saw a Loft Outlet I was sold. I bought a whole bunch of clothes including my favorite jeans! One pair of boot cut were only $13 but the skinny jeans were $35 which is still a good deal cheaper than a regular-priced pair of Loft jeans.

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I fell in love with these crazy shorts!

Where was  I going with this? I keep getting distracted. The point is that I hadn’t gone clothes shopping in over a year, probably. I didn’t want to face the music that my size has increased. Well it has, but it’s not so bad. I’m up a size or two. Big deal, right? I used to be a size 18. I think I can deal with size 2. I gotta stop obsessing with being what I was when I was at my smallest. That probably wasn’t even healthy, anyway. I have a problem with trying to compete against myself to be smaller. Smaller. Smaller. It’s all self-competition for no reason other than to win against me.


Health Updates

Last time I posted I said I didn’t want to talk about how I’ve been doing on the health-front. That’s because I had a bad 4-5 days last week. I was ashamed and just didn’t know what to say that I haven’t already said in the past. I’m constantly trying different things. The effort is there and so are the results, but usually I break before making the amount of progress necessary.

Good news – The damage is already almost gone completely and the amount of bad days was only 4-5 which is less than usual.

Bad news – I didn’t log most of the foods I ate because I’d be mortified to share and the fact that it only took one month of “being good” to break me.

What caused it? Probably being too strict. The plan didn’t seem so strict because I could have a treat day once a week but everything else was too much – 1200 calories just doesn’t satisfy me, especially with daily exercise. I also was not sleeping well for a couple weeks in July.


August Goals

For August I created some basic goals and guidelines that are more relaxed. The idea is to decrease stress and obsessiveness because, starting August 19th, the shit’s gonna hit the fan as school gets into the swing of things.

  • Focus more on intuitive eating by eating what I really want until I’m full without worrying so much about all the little details like macros. No need for a treat day.
  • Continue to track food but don’t track until after eating, just to get an idea of how the day is going.
  • Drink around 80 ounces of water.
  • Exercise 5 days a week – This has mostly been a constant because I don’t have to fight myself to do Zumba or play racquetball with Mike. Both are so much fun!
  • No more weighing in every Saturday or graphing weight on paper. An occasional weigh-in is fine whenever but I’d like to try focusing more on how my clothes fit and taking body measurements every couple weeks.

There are a lot of items on this list but overall it’s pretty simple and not nearly as much thinking or planning as before. This week has been really good because of it, too! I feel like I can go out and get food and also eat whatever sounds good at home and still make progress.

Last night we came home from racquetball around 6pm to watch the Seahawks vs. Denver and Mike decided he was going to try a new recipe for caramel corn. He’s tried to make it from scratch twice before and it never turned out right. This recipe was amazing and also terribly unhealthy. Recipe: Caramel Popcorn.


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We almost ate all of this!

At some point Mike said it was making him sick but that he couldn’t stop eating. I was in the same boat so I took the bowl and stored the rest in an airtight container. Yes, sugar is the devil and I am aware of my addiction! Paired with rum & diet soda that was dinner. Mike suggested making this stuff once a year but you know it’s gonna happen again in 2014.

*Have you played The Sims?

*Have you ever made caramel corn?

*Am I being too relaxed? Do you have any suggestions?

*Do you ever compete against yourself?

{August 2, 2014}   A Week of Stuff Happening

Lots of different things happening this week and lots of pictures! I don’t have anything great to report on food because I had a bad week and I don’t really wanna talk about it atm. :/ Let’s talk about life and stuff.


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Still looks like this except that he’s graduated to eating, chewing on bones, and not living in his giant fuzzy bed.


Island Family

My cousin came up from HI and we got to hang out with him Monday afternoon. It was good to get updates on how he’s doing and how the family is doing. We sat outside with some drinks, good conversation, and good food. My dad made sort ribs on the BBQ, my sis brought smoked salmon, and our cousin brought us baked Manapua from the islands.

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Manapua is one of my favorite foods in the whole world.

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Got some to take home

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A lei for my mom

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A lei for me


House Updates!

We’ve been making little changes here and there around the house. The last thing was the new bedroom set.

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This week we got roller shades, bedroom curtains, and trim paint. I’m especially excited about the trim paint!

Roller Shades

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Without window coverings, these bad boys bring in a lot of afternoon heat.

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Blackout roller shades

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We liked the texture and lighter color of these shades because they go well with the wall color.

Bedroom Curtains

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Before we just had blinds

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Basic curtains

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Believe it or not, they do help block out more light than the blinds did.

House Trim


Before – The 90’s called and they want their sea foam green back.

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After – Basic white to match the rest of the neighborhood.




Teachery Organization!

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Folders and files! Files and folders!

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Each student has a classroom binder with a folder for each subject area they qualify in – Math, Reading, Writing, Miscellaneous.


Leavenworth Drive!

Today we were unintentional storm chasers. We joined the car club for a drive over to Leavenworth. Despite 2 different iPhone app forecasts of clear and warm weather everywhere, we spent the day in rain. I understand that this is Washington State, but usually the forecast can at least get things vaguely correct. We started the day with the top off but as soon as we reached Redmond the rain decided to come down. Off and on all day. Top off. Top on. Top off. In Leavenworth we felt a few drops that soon became a 5-minute monsoon. We parked, panicked as the rain came pouring over us and the car interior, and eventually got the top back on after a mishap with the car key falling to the floor and going missing.

But hey, Leavenworth!

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Mike’s plate

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One of our group members is from Germany and this was his epic meal.

The End!

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Our neighbor has honeybees and he just brought over some fresh honey for us. 🙂

*How was your week?

{July 28, 2014}   First World Problems

*Sorry ahead of time for the rant – TMI it’s every woman’s favorite week!*

It’s just been one of those days where all the little things add up. I just want some chocolate right now. Oh wait, that already happened.

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Fun flavor!

I woke up this morning expecting to relax a bit before running errands. TV in bed with GMA and Kelly & Michael.

First off, we’ve been worried about Loki since yesterday. He’s been constantly eating at his hind leg and wont stop. He won’t eat his food, play, or even move from his bed or kennel. We’ve never seen him with this problem and we didn’t own a cone of shame so the wound kept getting worse.

Then I made the mistake of stepping on the scale “just to check” to find that I was a pound up. Awesome.

At 8:15 someone unexpectedly came knocking on the door, so I had that “oh shit” moment where I jumped out of bed to do a quick-change and see what they wanted. Out the window I saw a city truck leaving because I took more than a minute to get to the door. They came back in an hour to finish the work they’ve been doing on their broken water pipe in front of our house. Turns out they were laying concrete. Naturally I had plans to leave the house on the day they were pouring wet concrete. At least they were extremely nice and I even had a good chat with them before they helped me navigate out of the driveway.

I read that Wal-Mart has good prices on school supplies so I headed out that way. Let me just start by saying I despise going to Wal-Mart, not just on principle but also because it has a tendency to attract patrons who could either be viewed as obnoxious or entertaining depending on your mood. BUT then Waze informed me that there was a Wal-Mart even closer to my house in a city where you’d expect a lot less of all that stuff no one wants to deal with. I spent a good hour there finding all kinds of great supplies and the most obnoxious part of it was me getting in the way of the same employee who appeared to be unintentionally following me through every aisle of the office section and then the school supply section, stocking materials.

All was well and good but at this point I decided I deserved a Frappuccino so I spent about 3 rounds driving around looking for the Starbucks. When I finally found it I had to wait 5 minutes in the drive-through behind one person, wondering if I had time to get a cone of shame and get home in time for the next thing.

Made it to the pet store. Bought purple cone of shame.

Got home. Crappy cardboard grip on a 24-pack of generic diet pop broke in the garage and one of the cans exploded so I took it outside and removed the offending can.

A few minutes later I picked up the whole pack in both arms to bring it inside the house. Guess what happened… Yeah, the other end of the cardboard package ripped open and all the cans went sprawling across the floor. One can ripped wide open and one or two others started spraying soda everywhere.

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It’s a pop-splosion!

A few minutes later a guy we hired came to give us a quote on repainting the house trim. We want white but of course that would take two coats to cover up the sea-foam green and cost twice as much. What other colors go well on a light yellow house? Surely not sea-foam green. :p

Off to Loki’s vet appointment. It turns out he had a hot spot which is pretty common among dogs. They get some kind of moisture building up that causes irritation and they try to alleviate it. The vet shaved and cleaned him up a bit before sending him home with a better cone of shame and 3 medications.

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Poor little guy. All he wants to do is chew on his butt.

I’m tired and I want junk food.

It’s been a great weekend! We’ve been pretty busy in the best way possible.


On Saturday we joined a car meetup group on a drive up to Mt. Baker. What a beautiful day for a fun drive! The roads were full of twists and turns so there was a good mix of relaxed cruising and on-edge roller coaster around the tight 15-mph corners.

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The mountain switchbacks freaked me out a little, but the final destination was worth grabbing the arm rests in slight terror.

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The car group. Ours is the little red Lotus in the middle.

Before getting to the mountain we stopped for lunch in the middle of nowhere. The restaurant there had a signature dish that Mike and I shared that was bread topped with a blend of cheese. Unfortunately they did not specify what cheeses were used. There was melted cheddar and mozzarella cheese on top but underneath was a thick layer of Gorgonzola. I attempted to eat one piece but barely made it because I hate pungent cheeses. Not worth taking a photo.

After a long day of barely eating anything and living off granola bars, I experienced a strong blood sugar crash. It may have been a mix of dehydration and lack of food but it’s been a long time since something this bad. The drive down from the mountain took a lot longer than expected. Eventually the road took us into the city of our alma mater where we went to the popular Boundary Bay Brewery. Mike ordered a personal pizza with a tasty BBQ sauce and chunks of pork. I got yam alechiladas, which are enchiladas with yams, caramelized onions, and other things topped with mole sauce.

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Yam Alechiladas – Yum!

Afterwards we headed to the best doughnut shop in town for dessert, drove the 2-hour trip back home, and made it back around 10pm. Just in time to pass out!


Today we celebrated our niece’s birthday. What’s a 6-year-old’s birthday without visiting every adult’s own personal hell?


Chuck E Cheese

This was the full birthday deal with food and drinks, game tokens, cake, and entertainment. I hate their pizza so I stuck to a couple boneless wings and some chocolate birthday cake. Four of us adults competed against each other at skee-ball which is my favorite game at Chuck E Cheese. It was good to see family and watch the little ones have fun.

Successes & Struggles

Health-wise, my body has decided to hold on to the weight this week even though I am continuing to exercise and eat low-cal. It happens and I’m not torn up about it. I lost 1.7 pounds last week which is extremely good so it may be that my body is evening things out and doesn’t want to lose that much weekly.

Yeah, I “deserve” to lose even half a pound, but since I didn’t I decided to check up on measurements since it’s been almost a month.

Over the past month or so I’ve lost:

  • About 5 pounds
  • -1 inch from waist
  • -1.5 inches from hips
  • -.5 inches from each thigh
  • -.5 inches from each arm

In a month I’m happy with this. The weight’s not coming off as fast as I’d like simply because I’m worried about the next uncontrolled binge that will make me gain so much of it back. I want to be able to stick to a ballpark weight range where there’s a 5-pound buffer for those times I can’t seem to avoid.


  • Staying on top of exercise and food
  • Not being angry at myself and my body for not meeting expectations


  • Feeling deprived
  • Really, really crappy sleep this week for some strange reason
  • Eating the same foods every day gets really boring
  • Not wanting to exercise because I’m so wrapped up in school prep/organization

Baby Shower

Saturday was all YAY with the weight loss. Then we went to our friends’ house for a baby welcome party since they just adopted a newborn last month. He is adorable. When the mom said, “Do you want to hold him?” I looked at Mike and then looked at her and was like, “Oh, you were talking to me??”

Yeah, I’m awkward around babies. I said ok as long as she shows me how to hold him so I don’t accidentally drop him on his head. No one wants to be that person. I held him for a few minutes, wondering what to do with a 7-pound infant staring up at me, and then a little too eagerly gave him back to his mom with perhaps a little whiplash.



That night we went out to El Gaucho for a nice steak dinner to celebrate our 6 year wedding anniversary. We ordered 4-ounce filet medallions Oscar.

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We also shared a nice bottle of wine, some fancy mac & cheese, and a dense bourbon chocolate cake dessert with vanilla ice cream. Sunday was our actual anniversary which we spent being happily lazy.

A Case of the Mondays

This morning was another story. We woke up to stress. Before getting in his car to go to work, Mike noticed this flooding in front of our house:

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We were worried it could be a broken pipe that we’d have to pay for.


So I spent the whole morning dealing with it because we figured it was our problem – It’s a box in front of our house. There was no valve or meter inside because that box was to the left of this one. This one was unique to the whole cul-de-sac. In the end it turned out to be the city’s problem and they took care of it. I was gone most of the day so this is what I came home to:

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YAY, not my problem.

Classroom Family Time

I spent the afternoon out with my family working on my new classroom. It was an awesome day! I started by going to a great teacher store just down the street from my house, where my mom and I looked around and I found a whole bunch of fun stuff. We went to lunch and then headed to the school. Just a few minutes in, we unexpectedly see my dad walking through the door! He happens to work for this school district although with his declining health he’s not really supposed to. It was a very pleasant surprise and he even brought a special guest to introduce to me, the school’s head custodian. He was a really nice guy and I love that I have a family connection to my new school district. Not long after that my sister arrived so I had my whole family hanging out with me in my classroom. I couldn’t ask for anything better than that.

Even my para was wonderful enough to drop in and meet for the first time. She brought her two high-school-aged daughters making the room super full of family. She also is clearly a great person and I am beyond excited to work with her in the coming year!

My mom and sister helped me move furniture and general organization. I bought a calendar kit and birthday kit which Malia opened up and got ready to go for September. There are still a million more things to do so I took home a good deal of homework. After completely exhausting myself for the day and getting in well over 8,000 steps, Mike needed to stay late at work and asked me to call off racquetball. What a relief because I did not have the energy!

I ran a couple more school errands and then got home for… What? More school work?

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Gotta get those IEP files organized!

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Fancy printed labels to match the folders.

I swear I do not have OCD. Much. I just like things neat and tidy and organized and perfect and ready and damn it I have all summer. 🙂

Other Shenanigans

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OMG SO EXCITED!!!!!!!!!!!

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Meet our new cul-de-sac bunny. I named him Roger. He hangs out in people’s yards.

First, I am happy to report that I lost 1.7 pounds this week. As in prior weeks I have been going balls to the wall on eating in terms of calorie consumption, eating the bare minimum that keeps me from going hungry yet not enough to really be excited about life. I just want to get these damn 20 pounds off!

Total pounds down is 9.1, 8.2 to go.

Let’s Talk Data

Anyone have a FitBit and sync it with MyFitnessPal? I love these apps for all the data they provide. It’s motivating to see the exercise for the week…

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…and it’s good to see water intake and how your friends are doing. I’ve been noticing something with syncing calories between both apps, though. For those who track, let me know if I’m missing something but here is something I discovered.

When I set my goals for MFP and FitBit to lose 2 pounds a week, this is what I get:



MFP says, “Eat more! You’re way under your goals! At this rate you’ll lose 4 pounds this week instead of 2!”


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FitBit says, “Eat waaaaay less! Better yet, eat 800 calories today even though you did 45 minutes of Zumba! At this rate you’ll gain weight this week!”

Now obviously FitBit is way off compared to MFP. I lost 1.7 pounds with these low calorie days and exercise. That has been the trend to lose about 1.5 pounds on weeks like these when MFP says I should be losing at least 2 pounds. Fine, I can live with that. I’ve always been a yo-yo dieter and I’m in my 30’s so weight loss is not nearly as doable as it used to be.

I just don’t understand the vast differences between the apps. I experimented and thought perhaps you should only set goals on one of them instead of both. That didn’t work. They don’t sync calorie recommendations as you can clearly see. So what I discovered is that they will agree with each other if I set FitBit to lose 1 pound a week and MFP to lose 2 pounds a week.

Moral of the story – Know your body and don’t trust everything these apps say. We are all different and have different needs. Many people already know that but it’s still worth acknowledging.

*Have you noticed anything like this if you are someone who tracks on these apps?


Successes & Struggles


Lost 1.7 pounds

Exercised daily

Stayed distracted from food

Enjoyed a night with pho and bubble tea as a treat



Eating just enough but wanting more

Feeling kind of yuck these past couple days


*What are your successes and/or struggles this week?

Yesterday my sister Malia and I went on our first hike of the summer. The original plan was to do one hike a week after school got out but things kept happening and plans kept derailing, but better late than never! The first hike of the summer is one of my favorites, Wallace Falls.


Ready to get this show on the road, sista!





This is called “Little Falls”. No joke, it’s marked on the trail!



Woodpecker holes



Malia posing by the water



There are a couple bridges going over the river



The final destination, Wallace Falls


It was a beautiful day for a hike but we were so tired after all the up-hill trekking that we didn’t even look at the waterfall before flopping onto the benches and eating lunch. After replenishing our energy we spent some time enjoying the falls and then headed back.

That night Mike suggested we go out into the sun with the Lotus to get Pho. We tried a new restaurant right across the road from last week’s froyo place. Both are in a nearby city called Covington which we really like because it’s a nice area where the rush hour traffic doesn’t keep you at a standstill. Finally we found a pho place I would like to frequent. The pho is good, they have a million other food options, the place is clean and comfortable, and most importantly they make bubble tea exactly the way I like it.


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*What have you been up to this week?

*Do you have any favorite pho/bubble tea places?

{July 13, 2014}   Sunday Successes & Struggles

After all the junk I ate last weekend and all the alcohol I’ve been consuming throughout this hot week, I still managed to lose 1.2 pounds. Sweet! I was feeling guilty on Sunday after that pint of ice cream and the party Saturday and felt like I should have had a gain the next weekend or best case scenario maintain. I’m really happy with this weekend’s results.


  • Eating the right quantities of food every day
  • Exercising every day, mostly Zumba
  • Keeping cool during the hot days – The portable air conditioner has been a life-saver, especially for Loki with his thick double-coat of fur
  • Enjoying some unplanned Froyo just to get out in the Lotus and enjoy the sun


I got a little too excited and packed a bunch of cookie dough in the middle between cake batter and nutella froyo with marshmallow topping, mochi, and chocolate chips



  • Having a couple light drinks every night, which is really unusual for me
  • Sleeping in after Mike leaves for work is just not happening, but at least I usually get enough sleep regardless


Car Show

Today was a beautiful day and not as hot as they were predicting! Every year there is usually a couple car shows we attend. In past years we have brought Mike’s family’s classic Firebird, but this year we took the Lotus. This car show had a nice variety of all kinds of vehicles, even a dune buggy and a Westfalia.

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My dad shows his classic ford pickup and one of my uncles shows his black Mustang among other family and friends we get to spend time with.

Interesting thing to note. On my way down to Tacoma I noticed an unexpected message on the digital highway sign:


Well that’s a new one!

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It’s been a hot and busy week so far! The weather is getting hotter by the day and pretty soon we will be in the 90’s – For those who don’t know, Washington is not known for “warm weather” or “air conditioning” or “sunlight”. It’s known for “rain” and “vampires” and “gray skies”. At the 85-100 degree point we lock ourselves in one small room with a portable air conditioner. The heat makes us moody and pissy.


Please save us from ourselves!


Exercise has been difficult but I’ve been doing it before too much heat sets in. I’m on the “alcohol” diet – There’s something about being so uncomfortably hot that makes me want to drink. This is weird because I’m not a big drinker, especially when I want all my calories to come from real food. Heat seems to strongly curb my appetite. I’ve been eating a lot more chicken this week which has also helped immensely. All I need is a bit of shredded enchilada chicken for lunch and dinner and my body is no longer hungry. Ever. Hence extra calories for light drinks.


Skinny Pirate – My favorite!

Over the weekend I ate way too many calories. That Saturday party was all food and then the stress from Sunday’s shopping excursion mixed with the heat made me go crazy and get ice cream. I’ve been expecting to maintain or gain the 1.5 pounds I lost from last Saturday. Stepped on the scale on Tuesday and was  up 2 pounds. LAME. I did get right back on the wagon Monday and have been feeling pretty good, so I jumped on the scale this morning. Down 2.5 since Tuesday. So far that means I’m half a pound down from last Saturday’s official weigh in. I am hopeful it will stay that way because I am pretty amazed at being able to lose any weight at all after last weekend.

Here’s what I really want: I really want to live my life and have those “bad weekends” without gaining all the weight back. I really want to stop the binge eating even though I am well aware that it happens no matter what steps I take. I have yet to see a psych which might be really good for me. I really want to be at an ideal weight that isn’t necessarily the lowest possible weight I can get to. Been there, done that, can’t maintain 105 pounds. Probably shouldn’t, either. Jillian Michaels is my height and weighs 115 pounds with all that muscle. I’d like to weigh 115 pounds without the muscle. Yes, muscles are great. I am just kind of over it right now.


5’2″, 115lbs.


Not the kind about weight. We redid our bedroom!

Before 1

Before – Eyesore

After 1

After – Sigh of relief


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After 2



Before 3


After 3


et cetera